Day 5, September 21, 2014
Sunday began with Bhakti Yoga with Marti. A wonderful class during which we chanted often, and I learned how to use mala beads, while repeating the mantra, “Om tare tuttare ture svaha,” 108 times. We learned about Green Tārā, known as the Buddha of enlightened activity. As per Wikipedia: “Tārā also embodies many of the qualities of feminine principle. She is known as the Mother of Mercy and Compassion. She is the source, the female aspect of the universe, which gives birth to warmth, compassion and relief from bad karma as experienced by ordinary beings in cyclic existence. She engenders, nourishes, smiles at the vitality of creation, and has sympathy for all beings as a mother does for her children. As Green Tārā she offers succor and protection from all the unfortunate circumstances one can encounter within the samsaric world.”
After yoga, I walked to the beach to collect dead sea coral to inspire my designs. Then I washed about 30 white tiles that I scavenged from the junk pile, and began painting some coral patterns. It feels good to be painting and creating! I really love all of the different patterns of the coral, and I am excited to explore this! I also love my art desk here, overlooking the garden. The desk is high and wide, and I feel like I can spread out, and have things in front of me for inspiration. I had a teeny tiny resident lizard on my desk today – probably half an inch long, with beautiful stripes. He was an inspiration.
My other big project of the day was that I bought Pinol, sort of like Pine Sol, found a mop, and cleaned all of the floors, walls, and the ceiling in my room. This elusive Pinol bottle claimed that it would deter cockroaches, and sure enough, I didn’t see one stirring last night.
I don’t feel like I accomplished too much on Sunday, but I am learning that simple tasks, like finding a mop and cleaning my room, can take up the better part of a day. But it is so worth it if it means less bugs sleeping with me!
After my room cleaning, I got dressed up and took myself out to Lol-ha on the beach for a Jamaica water and a chicken quesadilla. It was quite lovely. I did think about how it would be nice to share that moment with someone, but I am learning to appreciate that it is also beautiful to learn more about how to be alone successfully, and how we are never really alone. I am proud of myself that I know enough Spanish to convey to locals that I need help with spider removal. I can ask for certain books at the library, I can get from one place to the next, and I can order food – all in Spanish. I can be here, creating things, exploring the world, making my own meals, doing yoga, and being happy. As we are dealing with in yoga – finding a balance between light and dark, day and night. I am surrounded here by so many strong, independent women who are making such an impact on the world, and it inspires me.
At the supermarket the other day in Playa del Carmen, a salesperson there was telling me about a promotion that they were having where I would get a free sand shovel with the purchase of sunscreen. She said to me in Spanish, “It would be perfect for your kids!” I said to her, “I don’t have any kids.” She was surprised. And at first, I thought she was horrified by this fact. She said, “No hijos?! You must have so much free time – to actually enjoy the beach!” I do! I thought to myself. I have so much time to enjoy anything I want right now. But one day, I want that shovel.